I never realized until just now what a fruit basket I had been all these years... Damn !!
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Monday, June 29, 2009
Tyranny of the Undone !! [part 2]
Roller coasters have a strange charecteristic reincarnation.... for once u believe its down and steady n' the next moment its exhilarating again..... no matter how predictable life becomes , the hint of the unpredictable is always there....
After my entrance results i was in a state of utter confusion.... on one side i was going to step into a life i'd always dreamt of..... but on the other i had lost the single most precious person in my life... the only fairytale in my life was finally over.... !!
My first few days in college was totally sultry.... life wasnt exactly as funky as i'd supposed it would be.... but freedom in any form is meant to be cherished.... perhaps i would look back and remember that these were the days when i met the five of my best friends.... i was , however , aquainted to all of them beforehand.... as it is said.... an outsider's perspective is always refreshing.... or atleast different...!!
Never before in my life i'd felt myself so willing to experiment.... bunking beer n' babes.... i was finally close to my magic trio.... or at least the first two.... late night movies and late night feats in the card games were a highlight of the brief nocturnal period we had.... This was also the period of a hell lot of new aquaintences..... some pleasant... n' some painfully pleasant.... one thing that is for sure is that the first impression is certainly not the last impression.... even the first glance safaries fold up to be meeks later..... i was more like a loner who suddenly enjoyed the attention n' company of many.... the spirit of team work and the sense of a group was overwhelming.... never before i had enjoyed my life so thoroughly....!!
Amidst all the change and fun... one thing remained... that was the sweet memories of the one special person..... despite trying my level best.... i could not forget her..... love they say is a dreadful bond.... yet so easily severed.... !!! the best of my friends constantly reminded me to move on.... it was pretty logical too.... but how could i...??
Her name , she had once said , meant the loved one.... n' she was the one indeed !!!
Anyways.... every day had something new to add to the weird feat tally of mine.... be it the tag of "the" prime bunker... or be it a record of 6 continuous hours in the movie theatre.... i did it all.... the one incident worth mentioning is when i first went to a bar...the poor bartender had his suspicions if i was old enough!! ... right from the school days i had this eminent urge to be the rolling stone among the others.... here in college i felt i was a little close to this dream.... selection in the computer science cricket team was no less a feat for me as i was constantly overlooked in the school team.... we got united under the name RayoRaptors.....the championship stats were overwhelming.... not only did we win our first title but also beat every "so called" favourite team....
After my entrance results i was in a state of utter confusion.... on one side i was going to step into a life i'd always dreamt of..... but on the other i had lost the single most precious person in my life... the only fairytale in my life was finally over.... !!
My first few days in college was totally sultry.... life wasnt exactly as funky as i'd supposed it would be.... but freedom in any form is meant to be cherished.... perhaps i would look back and remember that these were the days when i met the five of my best friends.... i was , however , aquainted to all of them beforehand.... as it is said.... an outsider's perspective is always refreshing.... or atleast different...!!
Never before in my life i'd felt myself so willing to experiment.... bunking beer n' babes.... i was finally close to my magic trio.... or at least the first two.... late night movies and late night feats in the card games were a highlight of the brief nocturnal period we had.... This was also the period of a hell lot of new aquaintences..... some pleasant... n' some painfully pleasant.... one thing that is for sure is that the first impression is certainly not the last impression.... even the first glance safaries fold up to be meeks later..... i was more like a loner who suddenly enjoyed the attention n' company of many.... the spirit of team work and the sense of a group was overwhelming.... never before i had enjoyed my life so thoroughly....!!
Amidst all the change and fun... one thing remained... that was the sweet memories of the one special person..... despite trying my level best.... i could not forget her..... love they say is a dreadful bond.... yet so easily severed.... !!! the best of my friends constantly reminded me to move on.... it was pretty logical too.... but how could i...??
Her name , she had once said , meant the loved one.... n' she was the one indeed !!!
Anyways.... every day had something new to add to the weird feat tally of mine.... be it the tag of "the" prime bunker... or be it a record of 6 continuous hours in the movie theatre.... i did it all.... the one incident worth mentioning is when i first went to a bar...the poor bartender had his suspicions if i was old enough!! ... right from the school days i had this eminent urge to be the rolling stone among the others.... here in college i felt i was a little close to this dream.... selection in the computer science cricket team was no less a feat for me as i was constantly overlooked in the school team.... we got united under the name RayoRaptors.....the championship stats were overwhelming.... not only did we win our first title but also beat every "so called" favourite team....
Just when all the pieces of my puzzle were falling exactly in place,,, one monday morning i received a totally unexpected mail... she'd written to me after almost like a year and a half.... for a moment there i didnt know how to respond.... perhaps that was the little bit of the unpredictable i was waiting for... little i knew how deceptive things actually turn out to be....!!
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Tyranny of the Undone !! [part 1]
Wonder how my life would have been !! thinking of times 4 yrs ago... i remember myself as a confident young guy.... just done with my board results.... which were obviously overwhelming.... had a beautiful girl in my life.... a life full of promises n' prospects.....
IIT.... a popular dream.... a common dream.... a dream superlative to any contemporary wishes... for me... it looked my destiny... My sweet life had just this one challenge... !! the only target of my life........
The color was red for almost a year..... it all changed with my trip to mumbai.... the week that i spend there changed the damn dimensions of my life.... not that the city had its effects...... the fact was that i was too far away from the vicinity of my disaster..... when i was back... there was no girl.... the dream looked far too big.... n' i ,well , had pulmonary pneumonia.....
The plot of my life had been set on the greasiest of stones..... the dilemma continued for around a year..... a time till which i had for most part regained my honours...... !!
The next stop was kota.... the mecca for ambitions... a place where dreams r nurtured.... for the inital part , the life there was sultry..... eventless to be honest.... then again fate crossed my paths with two amazing girls...... The quantum of flirting was immense..... to be honest... those wer the best days of my life !!..... the next six months were like a dream...... n' then came the inevitable ditch...... although the period was tough... i learnt a lot of my lessons.... wonder how difficult it is to control your emotions when the person u adore the most stabs u in the back..... but coolness is the only motto of my life..... of the many principles that my dad taught me over years..... " to be cool in any situation" is the only one i picked..... sometimes i ask myself the question that was quietness,, rather ignorance was ever the solution to the problem ????..... n' so far i have no answers.....
Time has this wonderful way of healing the wounds..... as it seems to me.... it just distracts us away from the suffering... the wound , mind u, is always there......
Life moved on from a curious teen to a would be software engineer.... that i am today..... i take pride in whatever i achieved so far..... be it the simple games i won at cricket.... my feats at gaming arena..... or even the single smile i was able to fling on any face.... !!
In my quest to JEE..... we came across a chapter called the permutations..... it gives multiple leads to a same goal..... sometimes i feel my life is just one of these permutations..... Work on.... n' probably i'll have the goal that i desired......... !!!!!!!
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