Tyranny of the Undone !! [part 1]

Wonder how my life would have been !! thinking of times 4 yrs ago... i remember myself as a confident young guy.... just done with my board results.... which were obviously overwhelming.... had a beautiful girl in my life.... a life full of promises n' prospects.....

IIT.... a popular dream.... a common dream.... a dream superlative to any contemporary wishes... for me... it looked my destiny... My sweet life had just this one challenge... !! the only target of my life........

The color was red for almost a year..... it all changed with my trip to mumbai.... the week that i spend there changed the damn dimensions of my life.... not that the city had its effects...... the fact was that i was too far away from the vicinity of my disaster..... when i was back... there was no girl.... the dream looked far too big.... n' i ,well , had pulmonary pneumonia.....

The plot of my life had been set on the greasiest of stones..... the dilemma continued for around a year..... a time till which i had for most part regained my honours...... !!

The next stop was kota.... the mecca for ambitions... a place where dreams r nurtured.... for the inital part , the life there was sultry..... eventless to be honest.... then again fate crossed my paths with two amazing girls...... The quantum of flirting was immense..... to be honest... those wer the best days of my life !!..... the next six months were like a dream...... n' then came the inevitable ditch...... although the period was tough... i learnt a lot of my lessons.... wonder how difficult it is to control your emotions when the person u adore the most stabs u in the back..... but coolness is the only motto of my life..... of the many principles that my dad taught me over years..... " to be cool in any situation" is the only one i picked..... sometimes i ask myself the question that was quietness,, rather ignorance was ever the solution to the problem ????..... n' so far i have no answers.....

Time has this wonderful way of healing the wounds..... as it seems to me.... it just distracts us away from the suffering... the wound , mind u, is always there......

Life moved on from a curious teen to a would be software engineer.... that i am today..... i take pride in whatever i achieved so far..... be it the simple games i won at cricket.... my feats at gaming arena..... or even the single smile i was able to fling on any face.... !!

In my quest to JEE..... we came across a chapter called the permutations..... it gives multiple leads to a same goal..... sometimes i feel my life is just one of these permutations..... Work on.... n' probably i'll have the goal that i desired......... !!!!!!!